After much joking, at the expense of those who believed with their whole hearts that the rapture would happen last night, I began reflecting on things as a child I grabbed a hold of, whether right or wrong, and wouldn't surrender them for anything.
First, the rapture...
This idea is still "relatively" new. It was not commonly taught or believed in until about 200 years ago (maybe I didn't do much homework on the topic). I for one don't buy the concept of the rapture. I think man has added their own ideas and concepts, thus polluting the true meaning. (The timeline for most Christians is wrong anyway, if indeed the righteous are caught up to meet Christ at His coming it is after the tribulation and such right?) So the rapture or being caught up to meet Christ via flying through the air and literally meeting Christ before all return and set Christ's throne and seat of power here on earth sounds fantastic. I may be wrong here, I am just observing, but I see God our Father as one who is very subtle, and a full on rapture seems to be a grandstanding event that goes against his subtle nature towards us. ( Now, it's been a while since I have read revelation, so I may have it completely wrong)
Nephi a comparison...
When I was younger, I had it ingrained in my head, that I should be like Nephi. That I should strive to be a good example, because everyone was watching me to know how to behave, that if I misbehaved then others wouldn't accept the truth of the Gospel because of my deeds. (Whether it was taught to me like that or not, it's how I took it ans internilized it) So my view of Nephi was as follows:
-He was exactly obedient to Gods commandments
-He was very serious
-He viewed laughing and "making yourself merry" as sin (remember this is as a child)
So putting these qualities together I think I wound up with a fairly warped sense of what life is supposed to be lie. So in a nutshell my child world view was:
Everyone is watching you so you need to be serious and focused on keeping the commandments as Nephi was, never waivering in your resolve, because if you fall short and others follow your example their sins are your sins. (Well something like that any way)
The good news is I am no longer that self conscious. (Ok, maybe I am) I believe that each person is responsible for themselves reguardless of what I may do or the example I set. (That being said, I acknowledge the contradiction coming up and am ok with it, a bad example dissuades people from the truth, and while not your fault their lives are the way they are, it creates a stumbling block making it that much harder to accept the truth)
I have also found a respect and love of laughter and merriment that I at one point thought of as a sin, because Laman and Lemuel had a party with laughter on the boat to the promised land (I didn't understand the "rude" behavior was the actual problem not the laughter and dancing) so for a long while I was confused, believing that only church sponsored dances and jokes were allowed, all others were sins.
I am so glad that I out grew that (as of this post, j/k, kinda) life is so much more enjoyable with laughter and some merriment.